glasses

11:29p.m. est

so this is my first vox post. neat, here we go!
i just received my glasses back after a week w/out them. my eyes were hurting & i felt very irresponsible for not taking better care of my eyes. now that i have my glasses back & am wearing them i feel soo much better. i wore my contacts for this entire period. they are called one a day disposable contacts. yes, every night you take them out & replace them the following day. what i did was just pittiful. i wore 1 pair for the entire period i didnt have my glasses, 1 week. (this goes somewhere i promise, just keep coming w/me.) what i imagine happened was my eyes braced for the period of time that they would be strainning & working over time to endure till the glasses would return as there comfort from pain.

on several of these days i worked on several of these days i had days off. during my work days it was added stress to my allready stressing eyes. on my off days it was just burdensome since i knew i was trying to enjoy but felt irresponsible when i had a major issue at hand disrupting my enjoyment. i did finally realize that it was out of my hands & if i didnt take advantage of my off time then i would frustrate myself trhought the week. i tried reading, writting, studying, eating, talking, driving, sleeping, swimming, working out, drinking & even going to a movie. almost all of these are vision driven. when i stopped trying & started being my vision came clear & effortless.

it was when i was on the 17th floor of a condo building in downtown west palm beach, fl on the pd(pool deck) relaxing in the beautiful so. fla. sun & rhythmic coastal breezes as it came to me in an indigo sunscape. it was when i submitted to the moment of being that my vision hit a catalytic moment. i dont have to see w/my eyes i see w/my dreams. it was when light was almost gone from my vision, as i slipped in & out of the real world(reality) & dream world(imagination), that i caught a glimpse of an adventure worth living for. a world where you dont need glasses cause all you see w/is your heart through your imagination.

as i was awakened by life as humanity came in & broke this divine moment it was a constant reminder to me that this vision must be shared. the humanity that came & broke the moment was out of fellowship w/being & knew nothing of the realm i was living in because his existence was based on trying. as he began to try & impress me through conversation of parties, titles, money & language i merely grinned as to let the light shine from w/in so a piece of an indigo sunset would begin to transform a life from trying into being.

once this rain cloud passed i looked to the west where on the horizon you can see the beginning of the florida wild wilderness the everglades, & saw ominous clouds fragmenting in an array of reds the fleeting light that lit the entire city all the way to the other wild wilderness that was backdropped in closing darkness, the great, deep & most mysterious atlantic. this is where i turned my focus to the darkness of the deep & mysterious where the rain cloud came from. this is where i found purpose in my vision from the heavenly realm that my heart gave birth to through my pain of lack of vision. i reasoned for a moment in time, “what good is vision of light to those who can see it? the true warriors run w/the light into the darkest of darkness in hopes of enableing those who could never see, a chance to have the vision of the light through a pair of glasses called vision.”

even the darkest of nights is revealed when the smallest of lights appear! never fear the deepest, darkest, most aweful night for the light of life may never be exstinguished.

let your light shine before all men, so that they may see your good works & glorify your father in heaven. ~the light of life~jesus christ~

12:19 a.m. est